Everyone wants someone, even if they don't say they want someone now they'll want someone eventually. I want someone. I find myself day dreaming about my future and being married to someone, but more and more this future seems impossible. As you know, my sexuality is more indecisive than a young child being told he can only pick one toy. I'll see a girl that stops my heart and makes me completely straight, only to see a guy walk by the next day that makes me completely change my mind. I'm afraid to find someone to love because how can I honestly go into a relationship knowing that any day I could be completely not attracted to his/her sex in general.
Its difficult to tell which days I'm acting in which play.
She stops my heart, but he makes my heart beat faster.
I haven't recently mentioned any of my research on the biblicality of homosexuality. I haven't mentioned it because I feel like I've always had my answer. The Bible says that homosexuality is sin. It always said that, I just didn't really want to acknowledge that. What will I do about this? There are plenty of other things in the Bible called sins that "Christians" have no problem ignoring. Aren't women supposed to be silent in church? Do we care for the poor? Sure we might put a dollar in the offering tray as it passes, but let's stop lying to ourselves. That isn't caring. That's trying to feel better about ourselves for not actually caring for the poor. I'm a cynical bastard. I want to help people though. I want to help people. That gives me hope.
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